I’m glad it’s a three-day weekend. This time of year is tough – maybe for everybody, probably for all teachers, but definitely for me. Apparently for my blog, too – two posts in 17 days? Pretty sad. But I’ve had other things on my mind.
My empathy circuits are overloading with pain for my “wolf sister” Jessica, who comments here pretty frequently. Her mom passed away early this morning after a two-year battle with breast cancer. It’s been a really tough couple of months for her, and while I’m sure numbness carries the day today, it’s going to be a rough road for months to come. I just wish that the sorrow I feel could in some way ease the pain she feels, but it doesn’t work like that. Grief is like love; it doesn’t diminish if you spread it around. Unfortunately.
Mostly I just can’t imagine losing my mom.
I don’t know why, but I’ve become undemonstrative in my so-called adultness. I don’t hug or say “I love you” when I feel it. Where did this reserved-ness come from, and what purpose does it serve except to run up a debt of regret that I’ll eventually have to pay?
I can’t find the book I want to read next. It’s lost somewhere. I want to post more book reviews. Maybe I’ll go back and do a few later today. I probably ought to eat some lunch, though. Stomach’s burning.
Speaking of books… I’ve started the “2011 Books” page and moved all of the 2010 books to the “What I’ve Been Reading” mega-list. I’ve added a “Notable Books” page with my top picks of each year and, like I said earlier, plan to add some more to the “Book Reviews” listing. This blog is, after all, the mutated remains of a book blog; as long as I’m reading a lot, I might as well go back to DYHJ’s blogging roots.